A Different Declaration

Lord, remind me how brief my life on Earth will be. Remind me that all the dreams i have for myself is but dust compared to the eternal plan You so graciously have planned for me. Thank You that I am not alone in this battle. Thank You for helping me realize that to suffer for You is to gain, and to die is to live. PLEASE take from me my life because i no longer have the strength to give it back to You. As the beginning of a new year draws near, Lord Jesus... take control once again.

Pressure Cooker

I suddenly feel pressured about STPM.

So much to study, so little time.

It's ''only'' 4+1 subjects right?

I'm taking Biology, Chemistry, Pengajian Am (General Am) and Maths

The sequence above is based on different levels of disgust, haha...

Based on my previous post you should be able to guest which is the stronghold and which is the Achilles' heel

Oh and the +1 is MUET- Malaysian University English Test

There's a lot to study and i'm starting to wonder if i'll survive this government exam.

Even though i don't know all my results for the recent final exams, i can make a rough prediction.

Subjects like Pure Maths can really dishearten me at times when i fail to understand/get the equations

but if there's one thing i've learned is that there's only forward and giving up gets you nowhere.

I saw this quotation somewhere just recently...

''We seldom regret the things we do but more often than not, we regret the things we didn't do.''

So muster courage and hold fast to hope...

Keeping the dream alive! :)

A Biologist in the House

Final exams just finished today. Among the all subjects, it's quite clear that my stronger subject is biology, but what careers are related with biology? But before that, what's a ''biologist''? *(ok, i might bore some people with this post, go ahead, move your cursor to click on another blog, i won't get upset, go on now, haha)

BIOLOGIST - (biology) a scientist who studies living organisms

biological science, biology - the science that studies living organisms

bacteriologist - a biologist who studies bacteria

botanist, phytologist, plant scientist - a biologist specializing in the study of plants

cytologist - a biologist who studies the structure and function of cells

ecologist - a biologist who studies the relation between organisms and their environment

geneticist - a biologist who specializes in genetics

microbiologist - a specialist in microbiology

molecular biologist - a biologist who studies the structure and activity of macromolecules essential to life

natural scientist- a biologist knowledgeable about natural history (especially botany and zoology)

neurobiologist - a specialist in neurobiology

physiologist - a biologist specializing in physiology

radiobiologist - a biologist who studies the effects of radiation on living organisms

scientist - a person with advanced knowledge of one or more sciences

sociobiologist - a biologist who studies the biological determinants of social behavior

systematist, taxonomer, taxonomist - a biologist who specializes in the classification of organisms into groups on the basis of their structure and origin and behavior

vivisectionist - a biologist who cuts open live animals for research

animal scientist, zoologist - a specialist in the branch of biology dealing with animals

Aiya, this career choosing thing is such a handful. But frankly i think i would love to be involved with conservation and protection of endangered species kindna stuff. I wanna climb the highest mountains to find a SINGLE flower or scuba dive to the depths of the ocean to to do research on a coral or maybe even a sponge will surfice. I wanna stay up in a tree all night in the middle of the Savannah to catch a glimpse of predators hunting at night (well, hopefully i won't become the prey). Haha...

Studying biology just makes me come to the realization that there is undeniably a Creator who formed our universe. I marvel with astounishment at complexity of living organisms and all those things that the naked eye cannot behold. Come on guys, do y'all honestly think that all this came out of thin air? Even Albert Einstien said :''Science without religion is lame, religion without science is blind.''

Anyway, I want a career with adventure!!! Well, it's for You to decide, God. You ALWAYS know best =)

One of the Happiest Days of My Life

Horses! (Equus ferus caballus) is a hoofed mammal, a subspecies of one of seven extant species of the family Equidae. I've always had a special liking for this animal.

One of the happiest days of life was when i had my first ride on a horse at a fun fair at the field between Phor Tay and the Indian Association. I was 9 and it was a Wednesday night. I remember so vividly every moment of the ride. You might think i'm crazy but i couldn't help but smile to myself.

I enjoyed it so much that Mom and Dad allowed me another ride! The guy who was leading the horse on by the bridle (the mouth piece for the horse that's attached to a strap for the rider to steer the horse) also saw that riding on the horse brought me great joy. So you know what he did? He give me another ride for FREE!!! Muahaha...

I think i should take up equestion as a sport. Show jumping looks like a ton of nerves but it should be fun!
I might be taking up horse riding lessons during the November-December holidays. Hai *(dremy faint kindna sigh, haha), i hope that's possible. Anybody wanna ride into the sunset with me? Lol. =)

I'm So Excited

Despite the mundane routines of everyday, I know there's something VERY EXCITING waiting for me! I don't know how to express this, I'm just so sure that it's coming. It's like all my adrenaline is being pumped up for something big like er... just before a great race, my body turns cold as blood flows further away from the surface of the skin and the muscles controlling my hair follicles relax to permit better air flow en route to cooling the body. (forgive me if i get some biology stuff wrong, haha)

It's as though my body knows what going to happen as it prepares itself to meet the physical challenges up ahead and I (myself or at least the mind) doesn't know what's going on?!?

Sorry if i'm not making any sense coz I don't get it either. And please don't tell me that it's love coz that's rather lame and i know it's not.

Hoping and having faith in something I can't see... can be quite a sensation.

Simply A Miracle

So there we were, at Ariel's Bat Mitzvah (a Jewish celebration for the now daughter of the commandment, aiya, just refer to Wikipedia lah), we sang some Jewish songs, ate a hearty meal and prayed many blessings upon Ariel. Overall, it was a great party.

Towards the end of it, I had a ''brain blast'' and suddenly felt an urge for playing Pepsi-Cola (a game commonly played among primary school-ers) as i had not played it for a long time . So i shouted in a merry tone, ''Oi, who wanna play Pepsi-Cola?'' In an instance, it was as though one could see many guys' ears all perked up and eager to beat one another.

Round after round passed by, and it was obvious that one of the most dominant players was Leonard, having eliminated many of my fellow comrades. Suddenly, with a surge of adrenaline, he flew towards my direction and came ever so close to stepping on my foot (that's how you eliminate your opponents). Thanks to a unusually good string of reflexes, i managed to dodge his attacks.

Now, it was my turn, i came up with some weird move but Leonard was good, now we were both in weird positions and i attempted a risky move. I missed him again but the worst part of it was that there was now blood flowing from my knee. It was a very deep cut, and i could see some ''white stuff'' in the wound. Maybe it was cartilage, bone or something lah.

I'm okay with cuts and bruises but NOT ON THE EVE OF COMPETITION! I was going to run the school cross country the next morning. Well, some might say,''So what? It's just school level.'', but i haven't been under formal training for such a long time. I needed everything to be pieced nicely before the race. Anyway, Aunty Shanti and the cell group (Roti Batu) prayed for me. Many advised me to quit the race and some even came up to my face and said,''No more gold medal d.'' with annoying hand gestures. (it's okay, you're forgiven, haha)

But in my heart, i was thinking,''All the more reason to run, for if i win, my God will be greater glorified and more people will see that it is through God's strength and grace that i win and not because of my own strength and stamina, for I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.''

15th August, Saturday morning, race day. I got outta bed and hopped towards the bathroom as my nerve cells were busy carrying pain messages to my brain. I could hardly bend my knee, and once i bent it, it could hardly be straightened. No matter, i said a silent prayer, got my shoe bag and left the house.

Okay, let's fast forward a bit... With the prayers, support and help from many friends, i manged to cross the line with the fastest time. And the miraculous thing was that my knee didn't cause me any extensive discomfort and/or pain whatsoever! With that deep a cut, you gotta admit... it was simply a miracle.

Every scar tells a story, if this is to be one, let it remind me of God's goodness and faithfulness towards me. That He was, is, and forever will be my source of strength in weakness, and hope in clouds of doubt. Thank You, Lord. I don't normally blog about my races but in order for many more to know what You've done for me and what You can do for them, this one's for You. :)

In every victory, let it be said of me,
my source of strength, my source of hope,
Is Christ alone.


*the disturbing picture of the knee wound has been left out for the convenience of our beloved readers.

A Little Prayer

Dear Jesus,

These days i don't know what to feel. I feel excited for what is to come yet i feel as though i'm trapped in some way. I feel like laughing and yet i feel like crying. I want to cling on to the hope that You will come rescue me yet I'm surrounded by many doubts. I feel all pumped up and ready to go but i also feel afraid that i won't to able to make it. God, I choose to believe that Your plans are perfect no matter what happens. Even if my world will fade, Your Word and Your unfailing love will still remain true and faithful. Even when the world says i'm not good enough, i will look to You in prayer for You are forever worthy. Oh Lord, only You can see the big picture. May Your will be done in my life.

God, i also want to pray for those who have yet to know You as their personal Lord and Saviour. Show them Your great love, that You suffered and died on the cross in their place that their sins might be forgiven. Only by believing in You will we be saved from hell and in turn get to spend eternity with You in heaven. If only they knew what they were missing... for a life without You is simply not worth living. Thank You for hearing my prayers. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.

Sarah.